Her misses.

I received an sms from Her. It goes, "hey i saw ur pics at friendster. u look great. i miss u. n i mean it"

How the hell am i supposed to respond to that??

I refused to wallow in the past n negativity that surrounds it. But i cant help but smile at her msg and leave it at that. I didnt reply back. Its not that im hard headed or too proud to tell her that i miss her too at times or even reply back a mere 'thank you'. But again, im doubtful.

I had a few conversations with myself,

"Is it true that u miss me? If u do, where were u all this while? Too full of pride/ego to sms or even call me? And why now? U're lonely? Going thru a bad time?"

I highly doubt that she's gg thru a rough time. I can tell, from her friendster shoutouts. My reason for not sms-ing her or calling her?

Well, i feel there's no more space for me in her life. She chose to be 'occupied' by time with her bf, too busy going out or talking to her bf on the phone to even talk to me or hang out. Thus, i made my exit.

Im not gonna go full on sappy on this. Its been what, a month?, since she last met me (with her bf!) under my blk to pass me back my bag. So, if she can make it through a month. She can make it through many more.

Its ME who cant. I miss her, badly. But my heart aches n is a turmoil of emotions whenever I think of her or of getting back together. And thus, i think choosing to be ignorant, is very much blissful.. True enough.