Heavy heart.

Bf is off n away to Australia for a reservist stint at 10 am just now n i said goodbye to him with a very heavy heart. I refused to send him off at the airport on purpose because it pains me to say goodbye and see the look on his face while entering the gate. I've done it twice before, sending him off for his fun escapades with his mates. And it sucked. So i rather stay home, and get ready for afternoon shift duty.

Its not like i've never been left behind by him before. But those times were just for a while. 5 days max. This time, its 3 weeks! I cant take 3 weeks! I cant bear to be apart from him for 3 weeks! *Emo mode*

I told him to 'take care' over n over again. I told him im gonna miss him numerous times cuz im afraid he didnt hear me the 1st time. I really am gonna miss Bf. Alot, at that. Im too dependent on him i dare say. I depend on him to wake me up, I depend on him to hear me out through my frustrated moments at work, I depend on him to accompany me on my bored n lonely days. I depend on him to give me strength. I depend on him for my dose of love n attention. No one do me better than him, my Bf.

I promised him that im gonna be good while he's away. And i intend to stick up to that promise. Come back home safely my dear...